mirrors don't lie

looking with in myself I see myself further than I should, running an endless race, trying to get back to start, when start doesn't excite anymore. Only way is the path I'm on. Looking in the mirror and back at the mirror wondering am I seeing, or not seeing...I'm not blind or am I , why do I seem so confused about what is in front of me, 2Nd look, oh...it's u, yeah me...u..us. And what do i see a women with so many questions and the so many answerer's that excite within her. Take another look, yeah it's u..me...us..so don't question the mirror ...it will never lie

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ahhhh...going under but I can still breath ,I may not title this one cause it maybe to long, my FUCKEN to do list is weighing me down, and here I am in the middle of the ocean looking for a "life jacket" when I can swim. I'm no "fish of the sea" but God created us all the same able to, willing to, I'm open to, shyt what else I'm I gonna do, but be like Peter and trust the almighty and walk on water even in the mist of this stormy weather.

aaaaahhh ..i'm going under and no one seems to realize that i'm sinking, so why wait for she,he or them to save me, no mame save your self. SELF made, never duplicated, born alone, gone alone, so why drown waiting for a hand out, better off trusting my inner guts, telling me to swim a while than walk on water, swim,swim, than walk. Easier said then done, I know that, u know that, the person that told me,wrote me, whisper in my ear knows that, but simply going with that 1st thought of YES! proceed swim out of this stormy weather to a calm sea, where the fish swim in groups and the scavenger stay at the bottom of the sea, no worries on them, I want be sinking any more, waiting for a "Life Jacket" when i know I can swim..swim..than walk on water.

Protecting your heart is the center muscle of your body. It controls every flow of blood that goes through your body. It's the strogest muscles. And when we don't take care of our heart, everything in our body begans to fail. That is the same thing as our heart we have that we use to love and give love continuosly throughout our life. At times I let my heart bleed love for people who barely know me. We let people write their name on our heart, claim it and say that they love us way to early in the game. We should be more cautious of those who want to give "love" or demand "love" from us. Loving someone is such a serious emotion that we take so lightly. I take so seriously, and I feel one sided, giving away my love, not recieving the same feeling (love) back can be so lonely. As a women I should lock my heart in an gate, allowing my love to flow. Giving myself time to ditinguish the difference between love and being in live. Being in love is something I try to avoid, but it feels so good to go in so hard, so strong, cause loving some one is like my daily devotion, dedicating my love to you is my daily vitiamin, allowing me to swim through my day, but with no life jacket, just and and emotion, feeling called love.

Loving someone, loving him, loving her, loving them, shouldn't hurt. Giving away pieces of are hert is like a slow heart break and your not even aware of it, you feel slight sharp pains from day to day, still giving out your love, like daily devotion. We let man pick up pens and write their name on our heart. And you get so caught up, you'll have mutiple names over your heart casue you haven't taken the time to let letters drop of your heart, giving your heart a break, have your heart working overtime pumping more blood than it can handle, have you having a LOVE HEART ATTACK, can't help it love to many, is like daily devotion. But where do we go for protection, we prepare for open heart surgery, maybe this times we'll do the right thing and love and give at a steady beat, not laying to much on our heart, one name at a time, steady beats, steady love, steady love to give, steady love to receive, love is on the way, pump, pump,pump. One name at a time?? Easier said and done, then make room, subsection your heart don't let it get to clugged up, still keep an clear path for love to be steady, love is on the way, pump, pump pump,pump. No more heartache, holding your chest cause you feel that pain, pain of loving someone so and not knowing when to let go or continue to love, continue to love in the midst of pain, unnecessary pain and for what's, is it worth it? No more heart attacks, cause next time may be the one time you out for a while, where you let your name drop from across your OWN heart, not loving your self the most. Loving your self the most , letting go of names that don't love you.Love is daily devotion, letting my heart flow free, like the morning wind, loving you, loving him ,loving her, loving them is what we do, becoming the center of our heart.

Sink or Swim

Not going to call these rules, steps or even a policy , because when it comes to women and love, there's varies of feeling we go through. So currently I feel like I'm sinking, letting people all around me pull me from the left to the right, not seeing them selves that I'm drowning inside and no one is saving me from hitting the bottom of the ocean. but I find myself reaching to pull people out of puddles, shallow water where there still are able to walk and get themselves out of it but because I care more than I should I'm still there with my hands extended pulling them out. I need someone to rescue me, rain on my earth , replenish my well,help my grass grow greener on my side, my sun is shining but it's being over shadows by the clouds that hover over my life. I need love something so easy and simple to say, can be so hard for people to give whole heartily. Tired of sinking, coming back up for air, retrieving my breathing pattern, and then here I go, sinking again. How many times can I continue to sink , before I can no not depend on my life jacket and my strength runs out and i can no longer tread the water anymore and I'm down to the bottom of the ocean, no help, no screams from me, pointless I'm emerge for life. I can no longer swim with someone who doesn't have a extra life jacket. I want to swim across the ocean called life, stop to enjoy the waves of the up's and downs that life gives us. I need to be able to swim through rough water, stormy seas and bad weather. Sinking can no longer be an option. Swimming is the only way I can get to that island where all my dreams come true. let me swim.